Thursday, April 28, 2016

Nuraini mohd tahir

People said, friend while in ease so many.
Friend while in trouble, difficult to find.

Friend is not only accompany for laugh.
They will guide us to jannah.
A lot of frens which like to do jokes and all, but in their heart, is just a friend.

Difficult to find right.

But i am the luckiest people.
Because i have her.

She guide me to jannah.
This relationship is not only as a best friend,
Not only as a kakak and adik
Not only common relationship.

This is friend lover toward jannah.

Kak aini or kekni or mex,

Plis grab my hand when u have the opportunity to grab anyone when u get into heaven.

Plis do not let me get into neraka bcz i scared for all the zaqqum, big snakes, bad and smelly foods, the fire and fumes all.

That is my wish.

Because i know u are the bidadari syurga.

Kekni send me the song of teman sejati with her doa for getting a wise and soleh zauj. Ameen.
Kekni, if not in here  for sure in hereafter. Dun worry, i have a lot of missions to be settle. It's not about marriage only.

I hope allah will bless u laling.^^
I love u lillah.

During her wedding day;

Saturday, April 23, 2016

Azira Iqlima Razali

Hei heyy heyy

Ismi Azira Iqlima
Daughter to divorced spouse, Azimah and Razali
Live in the broken family starting from 5 years old.
Praise to Allah, He still guide me to His way
Not being in identity crisis and being rebelled like my lil bro face. If he know i mark his as those two words. Eheh.

26 years old when 21st nov this year.
Raise up in rural areas after being merempat all the places while umi need to work. Fortunately, come back to klate, staying with late grandma and umi take care of her bcz of stroke attack.

Azira, the lullaby girl with only focusing on study.
Being well known among teachers in the school, got anything what i want.

The promotion of water colour, milk, milo, thread and jigsaw : i will buy!

Umi will do anything for me. Even sometimes i know, umi don't have money. Stay up all night sewing for seeking money to raise up both of us. :-(
Most of umi's shirt is white colour without makeup or any weirdo costing much money to us.

school visits to interesting places, selected for most of school outdoor's seminar / camp, what i want, i got. Lol.

Best student in SPM, coming from those rural areas, score high class in matriculation : that is me!

I believe if i score higher i will get good job. Enough for me to reimburse back all umi's kindness and her kasih cinta dan sayang. :-)

Uni's life, i just mediocre student. Busy with association. But allah's give me superb hand to palpate and treat patients at the utmost healing. Alhamdulillah.

In convo's day i'm not so happy. 3 of my housemate as well as my classmet and my bestfren grad while the other 3 will be going to repeat the professional exam and been extended. Still, allah passed me, grad ontime. ALHAMDULILLAH duh.

After grad, i still didn't get job as physio.

Kicked out to be homeless, suppress my frustration. Umi there, i here, azwan there. It bwcoming worse when azwan like being selfish.

Being paid with diploma's salary and i estimate it as a jobless.

And that time i am starting to rebel. As azwan did.

My life's circumstance stated that

HARDWORK DID NOT ALWAYS PAY OFF

Good grades in study doesn't promise u becoming richer!

it's out of my expectations.

I really sad when my acceptance to work in dubai being rejected because of visa's problem
I really disappointed when my application for being physio bwing rejected bcs i have no experience.
I am really pelik why every time there's someone wanna marry me, it turn out to tak jadi. Sway oh! Hahha.

BULLSHIT!!!

IMKK change me.
People's surrounding change me.
I know how i am ungrateful.

I wanna CHANGE my life.

SwITCH!!

The new azira iqlima :

Marriage is not my priority.
Wealth is the first.
Kill all the gila2 intention, puhliz.

I want to make a name for myself in this world,
To be able to make a difference,
To achieve greatness based on my own rights.

I want my talents recognized for what i work and put effort on it.

I want to help peoples regarding my hand skill and talent.

Because I know my potential goes BEYOND my limit.

I truly and sincerely believe that I have the ability to make a difference for this world.

Now what I have to do is PROVE it to the rest of the world.

I want the sky's community recognized me as a tawadhu' and solehah muslim.
They will make do'a to Allah bless me.
Always.
Forever.
Eternity.

Apa lagi, move on babeh!

Credit to my coach : azlan ali : senior petroleum engineer, now in UAE. How lucky u are. ^^


Chill

Hidup ini bermula tanpa adanya apa apa
Begitu juga penghujungnya
Harus pulang cara serupa
Seketika di sini
Persinggahan memcari erti
Sebelum waktuku terhenti.

Tq Allah, after 3 months i got the link for being in the middle of goats not a wolf.

^^

Sunday, April 10, 2016

Parents

PAPA

Mama call berulang kali, baru sempat ku mendail kembali. In haste, i asked ye ma,kenapa ma.

Kakak tgh kerja?

Ye ma.

Kak, papa kena tb lagi.

Innalillahiwainnailaihi rajiun.

Aku mendengar keluh kesah mama.
Papa tengah solat, fikirku esok akanku bersembang dengan papa.

Malam ini, aku mendail kembali nombor papa.

Dalam mengah, masih bercerita panjang. Itu memang pe'el papa. Bercerita apa sahaja mesti panjang omongnya.huu.
Dan aku setia mendengar.
Kali ini aku take note, kerana ia bukan bebelan papa kerana azwan masih belum pulang.

Air kencing berwarna merah, tulang tanpa isi mula kelihatan, acik membantu ke klinik setiap hari dan sebagainya.
Jua lega masih diteruskan untuk sakit jantung yang baru beberapa minggu didiagnos doktor.

Dalam semput nafasnya, kedengaran juga batuk kering bergema beberapa kali.

Allahhh.

Aku merintih di dalam hati.
Sebagai anak, apa patut aku lakukan?
Dan sebagai profesional kesihatan, apa fungsiku? Selama ini aku merawat orang lain, bagaimana dengan papa sendiri?

Dalam diam, aku menghitung diri.
Pasti tiba satu masa, mereka akan kembali

Ke negeri abadi

Dan waktu itu mampukah abang boy atau azwan atau angah atau aiman mengimamkan solat jenazah mereka?
Dari attitude mereka, jauh di sudut hatii, aku masih ragu2.
Adakah urusan pengebumian akan diserahkan kepada orang masjid sahaja?

Dan sebagai anak perempuan sulung, mampukah aku memberi sumbangan saham syurga utk mereka?

Bekerja siang malam untuk sesen dua, belum mampu membawa diriku ke syurga.
Belum mampu menanam benih2 tanaman untuk dituai di sana.

Atau mungkin juga, aku dulu yang dipanggil pergi.

Dan di waktu itu, apa persiapanku?
Apa akanku jawab bila ditanya, apa amalanmu yang boleh memberatkan timbangan kananmu?

Tuhan, aku ingin pulang.

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